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Letters to Our Sons ~ January 2014 {Sacramento Lifestyle Photographer}

Dear Elvis,

Your dad and I have been visiting kindergarten campuses in the hopes of finding a good match for you to begin your schooling career this fall. As educators, we are overwhelmed and exhausted and even more confused than parents who have never worked in the system. Sometimes knowing too much can be detrimental. Without getting into the details of the positives and negatives of the potential schools we have toured, we want to focus on the real issue at hand here. We don’t want to lose you. We don’t want you to grow up. We don’t want your teacher to see you more than we do. We know that with age comes independence and sometimes apathy and we want to bottle your sweet and crazy and wild spirit and keep you forever in our little bottle of happiness. We know it is inevitable, but it doesn’t make it any easier. With the gracious and generous acts of your hardworking father, I have been able to be home with you for the better part of 4 ½ years. I have been there to snuggle with you every morning and make you late breakfasts while we lounge around in our PJs and decide what adventure awaits us each day. Time means nothing to us. We come and go as we please…our only commitment to make it to swim practice a few times a week. It’s a lovely life. It’s been a dream having this freedom and time with you. And it’s coming to an end. Life is full of stages and changes and accepting this is going to break my heart. I’m sure I will step up to the plate and handle this next stage of your life with the outward appearance of confidence and control. When in fact, I will be a disaster inside. I will be secretly wishing every morning when dressing you for school that we could have this day to ourselves. To explore, to laugh, to have lunch together on the corner kitchen bench and talk about all the completely awesome things we did and saw. Us…together. Instead I will hand you your lunchbox and kiss your head and hope you don’t cringe because your friends are looking.
But for now, for these final months, I will savor every moment. Every spilled bowl of cereal. Every resistance to nap. Every adventure and inspired smile. And when you whisper to me, “I won’t ever grow up” like you always do, from now I will whisper something different back. “It’s ok”.

Love,

Mom (and dad because he feels the exact same way I do)

Tech nerdery: iPhone shots only this time…I haven’t had my big girl camera out much.

Please continue around our circle by visiting the site of the amazing Jill Cassara HERE!

January 16, 2014 - 6:54 am

Jill Cassara - That last line totally pulled on my heartstrings, “It’s ok.” sniff, sniff! We are researching K programs over here and hoping to make the most of our last summer before school starts. Your images are beautiful. I love the way you captured his wild pure heart and little sister’s adoration. <3

January 16, 2014 - 3:18 pm

Courtney - Jo I love getting a look into your everyday with your sweet ones. I can relate so much to your words in this post because I too have a 4 and a half year old and dreading when the time comes to really let him grow up. Beautiful pictures. The beach ones are my favorite. He looks so care free. xo

January 16, 2014 - 3:37 pm

Corinne - Ah my friend! This is such a heart wrenching post to read. I was where you are exactly one year ago and it is so hard! It brings along new amazing adventures and things for you to talk about after school. Xoxoxo

January 16, 2014 - 3:54 pm

Tara - So so sweet Joanna! He’s lucky to have such a good mom;)

January 16, 2014 - 6:30 pm

Sarah Roemer Davis - What a beautiful and sweet letter. Your son and daughter are both so gorgeous. And I can’t believe those are all iPhone photos. I never would have guessed. Your letter made me choke up because we are almost at that stage with our oldest. You describe it’s bitter sweetness to perfection. Love!

January 18, 2014 - 1:44 pm

Nina - I know exactly how you feel. <3

January 18, 2014 - 4:40 pm

Rachelle Gianelli - As always you so gracefully put into words what all of us are truly feeling. Bittersweet to say the least and I can’t say it will be any easier with your little darling #2. And still laugh to myself every time I think about your ‘biggest bow comment and scrounging for a rubber band”. You always manage to make me laugh and cry – exceptional! Xoxo

January 18, 2014 - 5:22 pm

Elisabeth Goossens - So beautiful, I made me cry as well. What a lucky boy Elvis is to have you as a mom.
Elisabeth

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